The Walker Kids

I look at these kids with love and admiration. They have had so much go wrong in their life yet they are filled with so much joy and with such a zeal and love of life. You wonder how they do it sometimes but then all I have to do is think of their mom Beth and I know where it comes from. She was a one of a kind person and she got everything she could out of life and I think she has passed that gift on to her kids.

I guess I am using my blog as a rant post. Their dad has decided to play his usual

Jack -in -the -Box father thing and it makes me angry. This man has ignored these kids for the better part of 5 years. He has ignored almost everything these kids have done, for example both the girls high school graduations, Robin's college graduation, his son spending a month or so in the hospital, and I could keep going forever. Promises he made but never keep though he has a million excuses why. This man makes me more angry than almost anyone else. Only the pathetic people who write hate letters to the Anen. moms makes me more pissed off.

As his middle daughter Janine told Buck and I, "the thought of hugging me father makes me sick. I don't want to look at him." She is struggling with writing a letter to let him know just how much he has hurt her. I wish I could write the letter for her because I wouldn't hold back anything. But I do have to remember he is there Father. He is blood. He is Family. He doesn't deserve to be called a Dad because he doesn't do the things a Dad does with his kids. He is there Father only because it takes sperm to create a baby!!!

That F*&_&&G bastard doesn't deserve to see the kids. He chose to run out on them and let them up here for the rest of the world to take care of. Beth had laid great groundwork for the care of her kids after she passed but damnit a decent father would have said I WANT MY KIDS WITH ME. There is no way in the world my kids would have been raised by random strangers. But I guess that is where he and I differ so much. I would die for my kids and he wouldn't. I see my 2 sons as my most important possessions here on earth and there spouses and children the same. I cannot imagine my life without my kids in it. Now we have come to love Beth's kids. Robin, Janine, and JJ. To me they are our children on loan from Beth till we all cross over into heaven. I hope I can look her in the eye and tell her I did the best I could to love them and protect them and help them make a good life for themselves. Are Buck and I perfect? Oh heck no. It is tough ....they were young adults when they came here. But we have tried and that is more than I can say for there Father.

He was a great sperm donor: they are smart, good-looking, good kids. But his part of getting the kids to where they are today ended there. BETH did a great job raising them to the day she passed but there father always took the easy way out. At 50 or there abouts he ran back to mommy and daddy to take care of him and to get the hell away from his kids and paying child support. Dear God, this man makes me so angry. He should have been the one holding his kids when they cried themselves to sleep after Beth passed. He should have been the one they talked to about college and growing up. He wants to reappear after a 5 year retreat. NONONONONO

STAY THE HELL AWAY- they are far better off without him in there life. They don't need to hear false promises and get token gifts and then have you run back to Florida and forget about them till a time that you deem necessary to reappear. He always uses alcohol as an excuse. He is an adult, he made the choice that a bottle of liquor was more important than his own flesh and blood. Doug, when are you gonna grow up and talk responsibility for the choices you have made. You have cheated your kids out of so much. Your kids make better day to day choices than you do. You think phone calls makes up for yoou not being here? Get real, you should have found a way to see your kids.

I look at the above pictures and I just keep thinking , HOW? How could you walk away from your kids. It just doesn't make any sense. At least with JJ and Justine I can understand their thought processes when they put their baby daughter up for adoption. They were way to young to try and raise a baby on their own and make a good life for all of them. They found a great couple looking for children and it seems Claire will enjoy everything that a child is entitled to have. Mainly, a mom and dad who will love her and would lay down there life for their her.

My advice to the kids on there father would be to take your time if you want to establish a longterm relationship with him. It is easy to talk the talk of saying you'll be there.....but I think be there for what....your kids are about to be all grown up and in college or just starting a new career. You want to come into there lives now that the "hard" part is over. You don't deserve these kids. You don't deserve to walk your daughters down the aisle or stand by your son when he takes a wife. You haven't earned the right to have them in your life. They don't need to be hurt yet again but one of your promises unfulfilled. Beth is still a far better parent to these kids and she passed away nearly 3 years ago. Her memories and the example of her life lived are a far better daily reminder to them than you who are a living breathing person!

At this point in time I cannot forgive you. Everything you put Beth through and everything you have put your kids through deems that at this point in time I cannot and will not. Maybe this makes me a bad person but I cannot sit back and watch you hurt these kids yet again.

They do not deserve it. You do not deserve to be a part of these kids life. You've done nothing but hirt them. Over and over and over and over and over. I hope they all tell you to stay the hell away from them.