Why

Sometimes you have to wonder why things happen to you. You get that feeling that no one but you ever goes through bad things or tough times. God must not like you and you wonder why he keeps picking on you!!!

Our family is going through one of those times right now. My niece is carrying a precious little baby that she and her hubby know will die at birth or shortly there after. They were given the opportunity to terminate her life and start all over. But they made the choice to give there baby whatever chance of life she has by carrying her to term. What faith they are showing all of us by traveling down the road of bittersweet. To feel your child move inside of you and know as long as she is in you she is safe and alive but the minute she has to begin the birthing process she begins her own death.

I admire their courage and compassion. Especially when so many would have terminated the life of their "handicapped" child. For me it's this one main thing; God sent her to you this way for a reason. It is not necessarily ours to understand the why's and things like that but we can learn from her. We all have lessons to learn, weaknesses and strengths to deal with and Carleigh's lesson to us may be that however short and brief something is, we need to cherish it and grab onto that minute or hour and get all that we can from it. That we shouldn't take life for granted and the people that are in our circle. Life is this fragile thread that we need to nurture and guard.

I know Holly asked all of us what we are learning from Carleigh and to post our thoughts. So I decided to blog my thoughts instead. She has made me begin to go through my own life and look and all the people who have touched my life. Have I ever thanked the teachers who took the extra time to help me learn something, thank the coach who got me through a tough practice or game, the college professor who gave me good advice, we all have people who have gone beyond the call and helped us, but have we ever thanked them or told them that that little act of kindness they showed to us meant everything to us. The opportunities I have had to help someone, did I do all that I could have? Carleigh is helping me to learn to see the moment that is right in front of me. I am only going to have this one chance to make the most of today. I cannot worry about yesterday, it is time past, and I cannot worry about tomorrow because that time is not yet begun.